We had a list of diseases/possible birth defects/other things that we had to consider. We talked to doctor friends and looked stuff up on the internet and talked about a lot of things we never thought we'd have to consider when having a child. Ultimately we crossed several things off our list of what we would accept but we still left quite a bit that we'd consider. At times this felt pretty crappy because it's hard to want a baby desperately but to have to admit that we don't want just ANY baby. But, whether it's a rationalization or legitimate reasoning, we were ok with our choices because we gave up a whole lot of control by choosing this route and this was one way that we could reassert some control over the situation. All of the information we got from birth mothers was self reported so we knew we'd never be 100% sure that the information we had would be accurate anyway.
At one point we were given the chance to be considered by a pregnant woman who had an STD. I got the information about the birthmother while I was at work and I remember looking up the disease and saying rather loudly in my very open work environment, "well, if you're going to have an STD, that's the one you want." Fortunately my co workers all knew what we were going through and they assumed my comment was related to an adoption rather than marital problems at home.
After all this was done and our wait officially began we tried to distract ourselves as best as we could. One of my favorite distractions was a trip we made to NYC just after Thanksgiving in 2013. We met up with some old friends and had a great time playing for a few days. One of our friends is very tall and this is me wearing his coat and hat before we headed out for the day.
*side story...last night after we put Gavin to bed he didn't fall asleep. He wasn't fussy but he wasn't falling asleep so I went up to cuddle him a bit. Usually when I have to do this he pushes away from me after a minute and asks to be put down and then he falls asleep. But this time he put his head on my shoulder and we just snuggled. Then he asked for his beanbag so we laid down there. He asked for a blanket and had brought his stuffed lynx. Then we smiled at each other and had kisses and talked for a few minutes and then he fell asleep blowing me kisses. It was maybe the greatest thing ever. I think I promised him a pony but fortunately he forgot about it this morning.